sometimes i wish i could go back to how my life used to be, cuddling watching a movie, in my bed, in my grandparents house, in utah; with him. i miss the simple things that brought me joy each day. i miss knowing that i was loved, each day. i miss seeing my best friends, each day. i miss knowing that i had someone to turn to, each day.
my mind is full of questions, things i go back and forth on. things that always seem to come back, feelings that keep arising, and i can't hide them anymore.