i wish there was a way to put out there how my brain and emotions are feeling (k i need to work on how i try and say things).. but i can tell you right now, i'm numb.. have been for about 3 weeks now. i'm sick of people and their opinions, i'm sick of being pushed to the side when theres something CLEARLY going on, and i'm just plain sick of everything.
my life just completely changed, and i don't even have a second to think straight and collect my thoughts about how i really feel about it. some days i'm okay with it, other days i just wanna go home, and other days i'm so excited i'm here.
i wanna thank all the people that have been there for me through this hard time, my friends and family have been beyond amazing and ohhhhh so patient with me. i am ever so thankful for the close people i have in my life, and this experience to realize what really is most important to me- and who as well.
enough rambling. sorry.