I made this blog to document my life on my hard times, my good, and the most impacting ones as well. the blogging world became my escape for so long, where i felt i could actually talk about how i felt and not feel like i'm being judged; where i could finally trust something to not talk when i just wanted to vent. there hasn't been one time when i've had negative feed back, it's always been good (knock on wood), and i can't even tell you how much those little comments have helped me along the way. over these past 2 years, i have grown more then i could ever imagine. it's crazy to think back on where i was when i first started this blog, and how far i've come since then. my life has changed in so many ways, it's hard for me to even grasp it. i know, lately that's all i talk about; but i can't even begin to tell you what it's been like. there's been times where it's been utter bliss, and other times where i felt like i was in the depths of hell. but either way, i've always had THIS to come back to, and ramble my thoughts away.
i guess i'm just extremely thankful that i found a way to actually grow to express myself, and not feel trapped in my own mind. i never thought something that seems so small, could be such a help in my life; and this is exactly what it's been. more then a help i guess i should say.
i want to say thank you to my readers. as gay as it sounds, you have no idea the impact you've made. the random Facebook messages with people telling me that i've helped them in ways, and to help people understand that they're not alone in many situations.. it gave me motivation to keep going, to keep saying how i felt, and to keep being strong. this past little while (i guess kind of a long while), i have completely lost who i am and what i want. but the fact that i'm starting to understand again who i truly am, is comforting. i know many people don't agree with how i live or the decisions I've made, and i know i've hurt people along the way, and for that; i truly am sorry. my story hasn't been exactly a fairytale, but it's mine and i've grown to love it. i don't regret anything I've done, because of the simple fact that it brought me to where i am now, and there's nothing i can do but be thankful for that.
i hope my blog hasn't been too boring for you throughout these past 2 years, and thank you for joining me while i embark on my journey to taking flight.