Friday, August 16, 2013

just a constant thought

here's the thing that i don't understand. someone is basically your whole world right? you know each and every thing about their day, the simplest things of them going to the doctor, and them telling them they need to have surgery. what time they're going to the gym that day, when you're going to see them next, etc etc. 

this is the weird part, one day that can all change in a matter of minutes. you break up and you don't talk about the little stuff anymore, let alone talk at all. so they go from being one of the most important people in your life to absolutely nothing. k seriously, how sad is that?! for me, i've always thought about this once a break up happens. like you start to miss knowing the little things about people. not that i miss the person specifically in a romantic aspect, but i miss the best friend part of it. 

the WORST part is when something big or serious happens and you had no idea it was even in the process, like you used to be the first person they would call, now you are probably one of the last people they would call. for example going on a LDS mission, something that is quite a big deal in the boy population here in orem, utah. obviously it was spoken about while we were together, but then seeing through mutual friends that they got their call, it's almost like a sinking feeling. at one point, you were so apart of their world, and you always want to know what they're up to, whether you want to admit it or not, but once they start making big decisions like that, it's almost like a swift kick in the stomach. you're really not apart of their life anymore. 

i don't know, this is something that crosses my mind all the time, how the thought of you even dating them feels so foreign and almost like it didn't happen. someone literally goes from being your whole world to being a completely unknown planet. and that people, is sad.


"When you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you. 
And once they're gone, it's almost like a piece of you goes with them."

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