it's funny how quick things can take a 180.
you know that feeling where you just feel so stupid for ever giving in? after MONTHS AND MONTHS of saying no, it wont work. then when you finally give in, you let your guard down, and then they just leave you? sometimes it makes me wonder why i ever trust people in the first place. i put everything i had into it, and i got nothing in return besides a swift kick in the stomach of "seeya".
i guess this is just a lesson to not let people in so easy, although it felt like i waited months to even think about letting him in. it's sad to see people be able to just say "seeya" and it not even affect them. maybe it's just me, but when i say i love someone, i mean it; and i'm in it for the long haul.
life is funny, it can make you feel so happy half the day and then ONE thing happens, and it completely flips you around. yeah, yesterday was shitty, break ups are always shitty. but today i feel stronger, with a better head on my shoulders, and ready to take on the next issue.
if i've learned anything, the people you may think you know so well, can still be strangers in some aspects. i also learned that not everyone is as genuine as you are, and you've got to guard your heart and watch your back.
Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me.
and that's how i feel.