Friday, September 30, 2011

life lessons

at this point in our situation, i don't really even have a desire to talk to you again. which is the weirdest thing ever, i never thought we would get here. but you know what, i think i'm okay with it. before i could never imagine my life without you, but i guess i've come to the conclusion that i don't need people like you in my life. i've never seen someone change so much in such a little amount of time, but i guess that's life. everything you promised you would never do, the people you would never talk to again cuz of how bad they betrayed you (and me). you may sit here and say you're happy, but that doesn't really show to me, someone who knows you well; whether were best friends anymore or not. but there is one thing i want you to know, i'm thankful we were friends for as long as we were. our friendship taught me a lot, and you were one person i could always count on. i guess good things never last, and i never keep my best friends anymore. but i want you to know, i hope you have a good life, and your senior year is exactly what you wanted.

i've realized that there are always going to be people in your life to tell you that you don't deserve to be happy. they may not say it, but they for sure show you that with their actions. but guess what guys? the fact that you keep telling me i shouldn't have this, makes me want it all the more. all i need is my couple of best friend who keeps telling me to keep on going and striving for what i want. i'm happy with my life right now, i don't need all the high school drama and talking for hours after school with people that really don't care about me. i don't need to go to lunch with a huge group of girls everyday, i'm okay with what i have.

on a less serious note, have i ever told you how much i love jersey shore? insert your laughs and gasps here, but i don't care. i have been a faithful watcher of this show since it started, when ronnie was just ronnie without the sammy, when deena was no where to be found, and the beezy angelina was still in the picture. but as much as people don't realize it. i learn a lot of life lessons from this show, like to the side.. it may seem just like a joke that i would use this as an example. but that is the kind of friendships i want! jersey shore is where it's at, and yes i do have a poster of them on my ceiling (thanks grant). take a gander and watch it sometime, i promise you wont regret it. but if you do, get off my blog forever.

1 comment:

  1. why are you not showing up on my blog updates list? ever? it makes me quite sad. bleeehh. i have so much catching up on your blog to do, love.