there's this thing, like about the person you first love. they'll stick with you forever, even if you think you've forgotten. your mind might've forgotten but your heart never did. years after you completely get over everything that happened, you hear something that used to remind you of them or even more simple, just their name, and a bunch of flashbacks just run through your mind, fast and hard. it doesn't even mean you aren't over it, it just means that you haven't forgotten. your first love will always be a part of you, and you can try to think otherwise but your heart will always prove you wrong.
just stop while you're ahead, cass.