“When you feel perpetually unmotivated, you start questioning your existence in an unhealthy way; everything becomes a pseudo intellectual question you have no interest in responding whatsoever. This whole process becomes your very skin and it does not merely affect you; it actually defines you. So, you see yourself as a shadowy figure unworthy of developing interest, unworthy of wondering about the world - profoundly unworthy in every sense and deeply absent in your very presence.”
you know those times when you can't seem to put into words how your brain is feeling, and you search and search for an answer, but it never comes? that's how i've been feeling lately. and my go to? QUOTES. something about reading other peoples words and realizing someone is out there- feeling the EXACT way as you do, and found ways to put it into words.
that's when i feel a connection to this race.
that's when i know i'm not the only one like me.
there's people out there struggling with demons with the same faces as mine, the same tactics of tearing us down.
somewhere out there, there's someone laying up late at night, staring at the ceiling trying to come to terms with where they're at, and where they need to go.
they feel that empty spot in their heart where they long to fill.
THEY FEEL THE WAY I DO.
and that is truly amazing to me.